Sunday, September 12, 2010

Hello.... this thing still on?

When I originally started this blog, it was a place for me to work out how to become a teacher. After 5 years of teaching, I started to feel a little more comfortable in my skin.  But now, I'm a fish out of water in a new way. Recently we moved to the high plains. I'm now a fish with no water. Soon, I will have to make a life for myself. First, I'm doing the mom thing and helping my children adjust. So, I run from various activities. I know that soon enough they will be settled and it will be my turn to figure out what I want to do with my life.

I'm still working part time for my old university, and was invited to apply for a job at this one. I'm not ready for full time work, but since this is in DH's department, I can probably negotiate fewer hours for a while.

The 20 y.o. in me would be a bit appalled that I gave up my dreams of running the world for running the house. But, being a feminist is sometimes about being supported in the choices I make and not the choices I thought I would make. Part of me doesn't want to go back to a life that I have to figure out how to get a workout in while juggling the needs of the family. Not being able to go out to lunch if I want, etc.

This year won't be quite the same because we are renting a house and therefore I don't have plans to paint or fix or do. Just to make nice enough for the year.

But, eventually, I have to decide what kind of life I want for myself. Good thing the title of my blog still fits this new adventure.